Lest We Forget
We tend to have regrets and the make resolutions for change at the turn of the year.
Later on we get lulled into a state of relaxation/complacency when we see some improvement or when we forget the pain of hindsight.
Which then brings us into the new year, and back into the state of despair/ruin/regret as when we looked back at this one...
See the pattern?
We need to keep self evaluating throughout the year, throughout the times. If this means that we keep being on our toes but yet keep striving to do things better, then so be it. The real rest will come eventually.
The wise look back and keep acting as if there's no time left...because they know there's an eternity coming for sure, for everyone.
I need to be wise.
A bad kind of cognitive dissonance reduction
Started thinking again about the cognitive dissonance regarding the things that happened regarding a particular family member over the past couple of years.
Though it can be said that the immense pain has largely gone, the problem is that the situation had not improved at all, which leaves us with that the expectations had changed greatly.
It could have been that deep down I no longer view that person as family, or even someone I know. The obligatory meetings and fulfillment of duties had become nothing more than just going through the motion of things, simply because they don't mean anything anymore.
I think a part of me died over this two years, and it's showing in certain other way(s). Don't think this is good...
Resurrection
Because the resurrection will come, "long-term" takes on an entirely different meaning.